Not In My Nature

I hold vague beliefs
That leave me nowhere to belong
I crave your approval
But I’m clinging to the walls

I worship your detachment
Even when my bluffs are called
Feel no shame nor contradiction
In where my loyalties fall

But it’s not in my nature
To wait and see
If I slip between the cracks
‘cause you make it hard for me

My eyes, scattered and bloodshot
Tell tales of a reckless mind
Your frame, gilded and golden
Voice full of money, in a sinner’s smile
Seeking love in anonymous places
A second life on a wireless basis
Somewhere I don’t have to read the faces

You never notice my distractions
While I’ve got tattoos of yours
I never claimed to understand it
But I’ve got a thing for your Polly Jean

But it’s not in my nature
To wait and see
If I fall between the cracks
‘cause you make it hard for me