This Isn’t Easy

THIS ISN’T EASY

Every day seems ripe
But it’s all turned to wine by night
And I feel curiously reconciled
With the knots you tie around my spine

Falling through your hoops
It’s not like I can’t see the truth
But I gravitate towards the gun
With every text you fire through my lungs

This isn’t easy for me
Nor should it be

I was wrong all along about you
But I’m too far gone to change my view
All it took was a mild transgression
And a question
My space or yours
This isn’t easy for me
This isn’t easy for me

Bruises start to show
It’d make sense to let it go
But I drink-dial you every night
You play me without dice

This isn’t easy for me
Nor should it be